For my unborn baby

It's a strange feeling knowing that there's a life growing inside you...strange, exciting and yes...very very scary!!! It's the first time I am totally responsible for another human being and a defenseless one at that...and that honestly scares the shit out of me! I was so scared at the beginning that i would almost look in the mirror and try and convince myself that I was just putting on yet some more weight...a trick that just doesnt work anymore, now that my stomach is assaulted at all times of the day and night with my baby's movements...flutters at first and slowly graduating to full fledged kicks! But I love feeling the lil one move...it's reassuring to say the least...

Baby understands my emotions...she (I am using 'she' just as a way to avoid writing "he/she" or some other equally silly thing!!!) really does...music soothes her, she gets all excited when my DH strums to her on his guitar...she even headbangs to 'Rammstein' and I know where she gets THAT from!!!!! :) She seems to understand when we talk about her or to her and responds with a couple of well placed kicks (like she's doing as I am writing!!!). It's a lengthy 3 month wait before I can hold her in my arms and time has never passed more slowly!!! I read this poem somewhere and really liked it...it's what I feel for my baby and then some....

I Loved You From The Start

I loved you from the very start.
You stole my breath, embraced my heart.

Our life together has just begun,
You’re part of me, my little one.

As mother with child, each day I knew
My mind would be filled with thoughts of you.
I’m daydreaming of the things we’ll share,
Like late-night bottles and teddy bears.
Like first steps and skinned knees,
Like bedtime stories and ABC’s.

I’m thinking of things you’ll want to know
Like how birds fly and flowers grow.
I’ve thought of lessons I’ll need to share,
Like standing tall and playing fair.

When I first see your precious face,
I’ll pray your life be touched with grace.
I’ll thank the angels from above,
And promise you unending love.

Each night I’ll lay you down to sleep,
I’ll gently kiss your head and cheek.
I’ll count your little fingers and toes,
I’ll memorize your eyes and nose.

I will linger at your nursery door,
Awed each day that I love you more.
Through misty eyes, I’ll dim the light,
And whisper, “I love you” every night.

As mother with child our journey’s begun,
My heart’s yours forever, little one.

I loved you from the very start.
You stole my breath, embraced my heart

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